{Nothing can save her now}

{prologue}

*loves:
{white chocolate hazelnut
{coffee bean
{pink
{curly brown hair
{beaching & partying
{chatting girls' stuff
{my hunneys-chocolixr,djcube
{hanging out with hunneys
{ice skating!
(hogging on the phone
{helping people
{singing the campfire song with THEM
{warm cheese sausages
{waterfalls
{warm baths
{BLACKeyeliner
{stars

*loathes:
{wannabes
{ACT coolers
{sadists
{people who act hot
{hmm.wet blankets
{HORROR movies
{people who force me t watch HORROR
{baopiies
{cars w/o signals
{lipstick especially RED

{sweet secrets}

_.Get into LASALLE
_.LONG heart shaped pendant(:
_.CANON 350D!!
_.black top from fareast
_.halter neck
_.coat from FOXwomen
_.electric GUITAR
~~_.black nail polish~~
~~_.mp3(:~~
~~_.BODYSHOPwhitemusk(((:~~
~~_.princess earrings~~
_.adidas watch(ITS NOW SELLING AT 45 BUCKS!)
_.BLUEeyes..
_.summer vacation
~~_.1/2 cardigan~~
~~_.contacts!!~~
_.hit 165cm
_.limited supply of WHITEchocolate hazelnuts(:
_.CURLER!
_.teach piano(:
~~_.fox top~~
_watch kavi get a bf before i leave the school {she'll never but i shall persevere}
SPOILTrotten,but still sweet(:

{my hunneys}

SarAh(curly side hair!!)
RachELLe
taAhira taahiraaa(buttock face dramamama)
jOelOser:D
koMaThayye-bouncy curls
ChuanKai?!
dArius
deannA!
stEphaniE
draycO
NiChOlas
NOOBIE):<
KeneSU
JunDaaa
JudY
KurT(singing sensation)
SiTi
wirDa
fAith
viVien
celesTine
CanDicEEE
My friendster pr0file

{whisper t me}

{credits}

Afianne
Blogskins.com
Moargh
Vbrush
Juvenile Casualty
Foto Decadent

{bygone}

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{to do list}

_.singapore river with hunneys

Saturday, February 10, 2007

"this is mad. it's all mad."
-i've just read taa's recent post about
J.G and i teared. weird or what?
dont know what's with me but whenever
something makes me wanna tear,
i'll tear for seriously ONE pathetic second
and all the tears will go back into my stomach.

If taa had blogged more about J.G, my stomach
would have been flooded.

taa please dont be sad. i know how it feels.
(really) since when i was a little girl...
i've always been reserved for everything i do.
And when teacher finally picked me for smt,
even the minorest thing eva, i'll be the happiest
person alive i promise. and then, i'd do my
best in the competition, no. battle. and we'll all
lose.

in everything i do i'd do my best. i'd fight my heart
out and pull the soul outta me till the end.
but in the end it all goes down the drain.
to some *itch from some dance school
or some nerd with full distinctions.
i really dunno how to put it but i just hope you'll
get over it and yes, triple the effort.

There's this story of a mother whose baby fell
down from a high story, she RAN HER LEGS DEAD
TO THE GROUND LEVEL. and saved her baby.
Scientists and researches experimented on several
athletes who ran 100m sprinting and all, and used
a fake doll to test. none of them could catch the
doll in time.
this shows that in desperate times, miraculous
things can happen. if you have to win the competition
in order for ALL YOUR HUNNEYS to stay alive,
you can win it. (:

iloveyou taa. you're always the one encouraging me.
now its my turn. (:

i'd like to apologize to everyone whom i've offended
these past few days. as i've said,:"it's all mad..."
very stressed up by all the things piling up one
another. when i go to bed at night, its like in one
second the whole day starts again and my mind
starts thinking of the things that is going to happen,
the things that happened, the things i ought to
accomplish, and lastly, the worst of the worst,
pull myself outta bed and face schoolhell.
thank god i have my hunneys or i'd have no reason
to go t school.
facing LI YY's music everyday is PURE TOTAL HELL.
"listen..listen!!!(someone scratches his cheek)LISTEN!!"
copying down notes from powerpoint slides
every sec of our lives, (thank god jie qiang copies
fast) and dying and rotting and more dying.

lately i saw this quote on deviantart:
"i wish i was little again, because broken dolls
are much easier to mend than broken hearts."
and it reminds me of two people.whose
names begins with the same letter.
you know who you are. you guys gotta carry on.
"WE'LL CARRY ON!!! WE'LL CARRY ONN.."
i just hope it'll all end soon. and everyone will
be happy(: i love you guys despite whatever
happens.<3

the only thing that cheers me up now is MUSIC.
and PHOTOGRAPHY. i just love the way when im
clicking on my camera, i'll forget the world.
three cheers to visual arts! im another step closer
to lasalle! just thought i'd take pictures on the theme:
"I WISH I WAS A PUNKROCKER WITH FLOWERS IN MY HAIR!"
(: it's a song shal sung in math class. (other than dunt
peekaboo) so here it is-

okay maybe not plural, singular(a flower) but heck(:
EYELINERS ROCK. they just rock.
they carve this emotional thing on your eye.
like how im feeling now.

10:52 PM
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Friday, February 09, 2007

"Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet.."

THIS. SONG. IS. KILLLLLLLING. ME!

Dont think my angel will see this but i just wanna
say iloveyou! thanks for brightening up
my day with that chunky monkey kit kat bar(:
skipped track last wed..REALLY SORRY ALICE!
anyway if i was there you'd be running infront
with me lagging 10000m away.:D

and im sooo glad jaredboy came to the rescue.
i was at my wits end till i could feel my hair dropping
every second. wanting to pull anyone i saw walking by
to help me in my poetically pathetic math, but
stopped by kavi; as usual.

"you'll die a dog's death if you go for track.."
but i heard as "duck's death". stoopid me. :D
"quackquackquack aergh?! X("

OH and kavi wanted to sit on the swinging bench
in our school, but there wasnt much space so
i measured the space available and asked if her
butt was this big in diameter x2 (butt comes in pairs)...
-spasm.

ok story continues, joel finally learnt about the
hist of his wallet-to-be. frantically calls steph
and throws phone to me.spastic.

oh talk about julia gabriels.
unity lost. ): issokay guys we know u're good.
ACS BARKER are such. wanna act-ers. anglo
CHINESE. why wanna act can debate
in english and act to win the debate? cheena faced.

Crazayyebonkerism with shal never fails to
happen in math class(: "crush on MR TAN?!?"
what the hell?! HAHAHAAH he's married!
i like his perfume though. reminds me of math.
oh on second thought no i dunt like it.
and shal congrats on yr "dont peekaboo" singles
making it on air.((: im proud of you!
we talk about CURLY SIDE HAIR and BROWN
EYELINER!? hahaaha cute topics. that's it for the
week. it's another chunk of my
randomness life(:

6:35 PM
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Monday, February 05, 2007

im sucha "notty notty" girl,
everyone's blogged about their
new cool peeps except me.

oh wait before i go on let me
explain the "notty notty" its a
word created by shal. ok so.
bio assignment. im so dead. cos
im still blogging here and stinkin
like some . dont wanna elaborate.
ok so today's another day of spasti
cation with jaromeboonjaysalice. cool ppl.
thankgod they're there. otherwise. die
with bahasa melayu everywhere.

Jie qiang is not so boring after all.
i'll never forget the 2nd day of school...

Mdm Li YY: where's jie qiang can u please
raise up your hand?

Me to vidas: who is jie qiang?

WHOLE WORLD: BESIDE YOU!!!

Me: face turns red.

okay so he cracks jokes which are NOT.
funny, but i'll still laugh cus im nice:P

ahmad and arron are killing me. they are so
persistant in going out with kavi and i. wth?
slap their butts, please. okay maybe not arron
but ahmad. oh that *ERGH*.

Some other time maybe. when kavita and me
are free from appointments, (: HAHA.
3/6 is nice(:
starting to like my hawaiin beachfied class.
talking to ppl i'd NEVER thought i'd socialize
with. Vidas.Small boy - ji en or smt(forgot his name)
chengchao? okay. erm kiat cong?!? hahah so awkward
Lizhi?! HAHA okay they're nice. great. not like some
bunch of retards who press their calculators and seek
HUGE entertainment from it. i have to give a face right
now. otherwise i'll feel uneasy. 0,+.

BOON IS STILL ANNOYING THE HELL OUTTA ME.
someday i'll strangle him. I SHALL. JUST FLOUR AWAY,
FLOWER. but at least he doesnt "you ass" that much
anynmore.

track is FUN(: lee shianshian is nice.
she keeps asking me to "make full use of yr long legs"
BUT SHE DOESNT TELL ME HOW.

im glad to be borned into an athletics family afterall(:
"..its all in the genes.."
dad goes to the gym every sec of his life.
mum WAS an athelete. my gosh im so proud of her.
she jumps hurdles and jumps over the 100m obstacle
with that pole. (dunt know what it's called)

now she's proud of me(: but she says i run like an
ostrich. +,O?!?

My posts are so random but heck. just read them!
(: ok im so sorry, i mean thanks for reading.
ps the word verification STILL annoys me.
gotta bathe now adios for now:D

4:57 AM
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Saturday, February 03, 2007

SO much work to do, so lil time.
I

NEED

HELP!

time is passing like so quickly
out of a sudden i have no idea why.):
soon we'll all be 21 or smt its so
freaky!

9:30 PM
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OH MY GOD IM THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE!
I CAN FINALLY BLOG AFTER 1,948,375,938,472
YEARS! THE GIRLS ANd i went Lasalle today,
not much happenings, cause we dint stay long.
(taa im not hinting anything)
AND this wicked aura band played for us some
"ancient darkness" or smt..
their music is damn cool. they created some
urban lonjonkia sound likea the boom boom
thing ya know..haha ok but i dunt think i'd
consider playing the tambourine or smt so yea..

AND I WANT AN ELECTRIC GUITAR DAAAAAAARN
BADLY!!!!TO ALL THOSE WITH ELECTRIC GUITARS
-DUNT TALK TO ME. ):

and im saving like shit for a CANON Rebel XT 350D
it ranges from a freaking $497.00 to a even
more freaking $699.99. my gosh. i'll pour out
all the coins on the salesman's desk and he'll give
me that "taahira glare". comfirm.

and THANK GOD. i can blog. i never thought i'd
touch this blog in a lightyears...

AND *sigh im damn sad over my results..):

i hope my new year resoultion's not going down the
drain (anyway i hardly keep to any of them) cus my
results are like a STEEP SLOPE DOWN. HELP ME
SMARTYPANTS OUT THERE. i'd pay for 10cents a day
or smt. and sacrifice my savings for CANON. i cant
understand how anyone can get a distinction
for CHINESE and HISTORY!

i bet im scaring all my readers away cus no one under
stands what the hell this girl here is rattling about.

ANYWAY. 20 hours of training to SYF drama competition..
and im a entity, Michael. it's really up to Gerard if
he wants to make me a girl or a guy, i have absolute no
control.

"You're ready to come with me now, because it's nature
and you can argue with nature, Carrie." for the 20 hours
i have to control my dying need to burst out laughing
and roll on the floor with tears splashing out of my eyes.
"i must control. i must control. i must control."
I believe anyone who has to twist their eyeballs and fingers
over someone rocking like a mental institutor, they'd have the
same need to do so too. so ALL HAIL MINDY!

In case anyone dont realize i usually start my posts
ENTHUSISTICALLY and end dead. haha just a random
sudden realisation.

((:

2:41 AM
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Friday, January 12, 2007

FINALLY i can come to this page!
i've been trying sooo hard to SIGN IN!
then they kept saying i wasnt a blogger..
stoopid. {i'll tell myself to be aware of not
to write anything about kavii first, so some
people(better not to name), will not start
their "lesbian" thang.}

OKAY LETS TALK ABT TRACK :D
my first day there was KINDA FUN! actually,
the part where my self-entertainment comes
in, contributes to the "fun". (:

when mdm siti was taking attendance, stoop
boon kept throwing small rocks from the
running track at jays & me. i ignored. then he
went on throwing. i IGNORED again. then he
threw somemore I WAS SO FED UP. cos I
SUUUPER ABHOR SMALL FLYING DEBRIS HITTING
ME. then i picked up a massive boulder.(palm size,
but still considered massive compared to the
tiny debris) then i just THREW. (without aiming)
and it hit....(figure out urself) then boon gave that
ascending squeal. and a spasticated face.
(I LIKKEEEE WHEN NAUGHTY PEOPLE GETS THEIR
REWARDS:D) TALKING about spasticated that
leads me to my other constructive. jared doing
splits. i know. verbal irony. whats with him man?!
first doing splits second doing breakdancing.
you'll take months to master splits.:D

we did 100m
sprints. and that explains my limping for
alr FOUR DAYS! OUCH. haiyo thanks alot la
jaysree. when i was on the phone with jerome
all then she went to tell mdm siti that i was
participating in the cross country! million
thanks, avocado.

I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THERE WAS A CROSS
COUNTRY! im tellin u jaysumaa. i'll just stand
at the finish line and wait for you.

NOW JEROME'S HOUSE yesterday!
Boon and I went to jeromoe's house after
painting. my disgusting blue "chapalang"
umbrella had these metal sticks sticking out
so i dint wanna use it. (even though boon
was dying to be under the umbrella)
so WE WALKED IN THE RAIN!! DAMN FUN!
and then we reached Rong's house. taahira
had to leave): and so jerome was admiring
his smooth waxed legs and jared was playing
guitar and boon was thinking why his hair
looks like algernon's...
and me and..(i have to do this) KAVITA started
dancing to gone so young. HAHA we wanted to
act out the play but she kept saying she couldnt
look into my eyes..!!! yea. we were supposed to
accidentally pick up the clip together and she
touches my hands and look into each other's eyes
then when we're abt to kiss, she'll say: "your eyeliner
smudged." but i failed miserably cos she KEPT
LAUGHING! then we read fates for the boys and
spasticated with the small guitar a little, and went
home! :D thats about my day.

p.s boon if u wanna talk about our "lesbianity"
go ahead! "HECK...I DON'T CARE!"

and deraj if u find this detailed, you're so wrong.
& don't take it to heart. you're not gonna die.
its just a psychological thing. we will rescue you!

7:15 PM
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Sunday, January 07, 2007

Whats with the retarded word verification man.
It just pisses me off.

i have sooo many things in my mind that i wanna
say out. but i just simply cant put em into words.
thats when, kavi. she just take a look at me and
she knws everything im thinking. EVERYTHING.
we're just. TOO TELEPATHIC. in EVERYTHING.
I SWEAR. EVERYTHING. our moods are all the same
at different points of time in the day. we think of
the same things. this is soooo freaky.

{boon.jared.jerome.rashyd....}-im telling u guys
WE ARE NOT LESBOS!! I TELL U.
i bet she told the whole world saying im
her lesbian.. shit man. its becos of me that she
doesnt wanna get a boyfriend. HAHA.

junda, arron, ahmad, and whoever else. im warning
u she's agreSSIVE. only I can stand her:D or the
other way round? ahhh. dunt feel like blogging
anymore..

THIS is just for you kavi.
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and
try to get to you You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets
me like you do You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't,I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)

I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and
try to get to you You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me
like you do You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and
try to get to you You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my ONLY one.

1:28 AM
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Friday, January 05, 2007

IM SOOOOO SRY FOR NOT BLOGGING FOR
SOOOOOO LONG PEOPLE! OK FIRST day was
kinda ok(: soooo many ppl got caught on the
first day! dumb school. my skirt was soooo
super long! and they still say my skirt was too
short. ):<

canteen food SUCKS! but my hunneys rock my
recess! ok fast forward to FRIDAY! CCA DISPLAY
ROCKS!!! -despite the fact that we were walking
arnd like retards. but it was SOOO FUN! i was
carrying the axe going arnd scaring the sec ones!
i was shocked when so many GUYS were 'fraid.
(: let the pictures do the talkin now(:

jared confessing love for kavii. (: awwh sweet sweet love!

bimboooooooos!

JEROME YOU ROCK TO THE EARTH'S CORE!!!
THANKEW FOR THE BLAZER!!!! THANKEW SOO
SOOOOO MUCH JEROME! I CANT THANK U ENOUGH!
ILOVEYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
and it was sooooo funny at jerome's house ystd!
jared and kavita were so obediently obeying my
fantasies/desires! i wantd them to present the
sunflower to each other! SO CUTE!
and then later while we were walking to the
bubble tea shop and waiting for taa, we made a
role play! kavi had to use the axe and try to
attack jerome, and i had to save him and get
injured on the way, and jared had to catch me
when i fall.
AND THEN THANKS ALOT LAA JARED
made me fall FLAT ON MY BUTT.
i shall repeat. CATCH. not WATCH me fall.
anyway yesterday was suuuuuper fun la!
hope all of us can go out next week again
jared if u say promises are meant to be
broken and back out again I'LL SLAAAAAAAAP
YOU TILL YR WHITE SPECS BREAK AND UR
TEETH FALL OUT AND YOUR FACE DISTORTS
I TELL YOU!

p.s im 163cm(((((:

10:36 PM
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